Monday, May 25, 2009
不要把我推给别人去疼爱
不要把我推给别人去疼爱
I feel like...dying. I see a little light, th rest is darkness.
I didnt attend school today. Basically, I dont feel like too and I could not catch up. So, I rather stay at home to study for previous topics and understand well. In the end, not productive. I am going to study later on, blogging and editing pictures first!
I wake up, do house chores then nap. Now, Im blogging. I prefer stepping on clean floor, I like th smell of detergent. Im crazy! I online in th morning, my classmates were looking for me. They miss my laughter, looks Im so-so friendly. Everyone likes me. Th class is quiet. I miss them too, I will be back tomor.
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You can say Im rubbish, nonsensical or paranoid. I am feeling real down this two weeks/past few days. Worst of all, I feel so stress, hurtful, cant function properly. Life wasnt as wonderful as I thought. Life was way to unfair to me. I have been complaining and being restless towards family, friends, school work, etc. I am not what I am before, replying text messages took a longer time, sleeping was what I do to stop myself from thinking.
I was complaining about th same person(those colleagues know). I have been with her for 7years. If I really were to flare up, I would tell her straight into her face that I will break our friendship just like that. I cant stand th way she's doing, her thinking, her LIES. I hate liars, seriously. I can accept fact, truth(even if its hurting)but...but why must lie?! I dont understand. What-so-ever, say that I am being too paranoid. Yes, 7years means a lot. Thats why I feel so fed up, cos I care!
She can even hide things from me, how fantastic could it be. I eventually find out on my own, can see. Everything aint invisible alright, well...I will still tolerate. Wait till, I cant stand it. I will let off, these 7years would mean...NOTHING. From now on, whatever she wanna say, I will let her be, even if she's lying. I cant be too good, I must be mean. I have erased my hands off her! I wanna thanks God for letting her be in my life.
I just wanna type, I have th same feelings as Kelly Odelya. I have th same feelings as her, read her blog. But...I just kept quiet and laugh as what I used to be. Becareful, I might do something crazy, shocking. Be prepared! I might end up in hospital, surviving?...I dont know. I am seriously stress! My private Os, I dont wanna Mum to heartbreak. My hard-earned money go into drain. I see a big F9.
I wake up, do house chores then nap. Now, Im blogging. I prefer stepping on clean floor, I like th smell of detergent. Im crazy! I online in th morning, my classmates were looking for me. They miss my laughter, looks Im so-so friendly. Everyone likes me. Th class is quiet. I miss them too, I will be back tomor.
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You can say Im rubbish, nonsensical or paranoid. I am feeling real down this two weeks/past few days. Worst of all, I feel so stress, hurtful, cant function properly. Life wasnt as wonderful as I thought. Life was way to unfair to me. I have been complaining and being restless towards family, friends, school work, etc. I am not what I am before, replying text messages took a longer time, sleeping was what I do to stop myself from thinking.
I was complaining about th same person(those colleagues know). I have been with her for 7years. If I really were to flare up, I would tell her straight into her face that I will break our friendship just like that. I cant stand th way she's doing, her thinking, her LIES. I hate liars, seriously. I can accept fact, truth(even if its hurting)but...but why must lie?! I dont understand. What-so-ever, say that I am being too paranoid. Yes, 7years means a lot. Thats why I feel so fed up, cos I care!
She can even hide things from me, how fantastic could it be. I eventually find out on my own, can see. Everything aint invisible alright, well...I will still tolerate. Wait till, I cant stand it. I will let off, these 7years would mean...NOTHING. From now on, whatever she wanna say, I will let her be, even if she's lying. I cant be too good, I must be mean. I have erased my hands off her! I wanna thanks God for letting her be in my life.
I just wanna type, I have th same feelings as Kelly Odelya. I have th same feelings as her, read her blog. But...I just kept quiet and laugh as what I used to be. Becareful, I might do something crazy, shocking. Be prepared! I might end up in hospital, surviving?...I dont know. I am seriously stress! My private Os, I dont wanna Mum to heartbreak. My hard-earned money go into drain. I see a big F9.
